powchau: October 2013

Wednesday, October 30, 2013

a mid night crisis;

i'm reading andrew mcmahon's blog posts and it makes me feel a little calmer

like hey, it ain't so bad, just think about these words and remember this but

it has become one of those night where i can't sleep

my mind is fluttering with all sorts of things

hey, what's my excuse for quitting my job, what's a better excuse

hey, how am i going to go to paris without money, how am i getting that apartment without money, maybe i should just do it for a while longer

hey, why do you take so long to reply

hey, i can't stand you right now

hey, i should get you those books for christmas

tonight it feels like it is bad

tonight it feels like cold lonely tiring regret ache

tonight it feels like truth sentiment nostalgia

this is where i remind myself why i should follow through

this is where i remind myself the reason in the first place

this is where i remind myself to put myself first

this is where i remind myself

what i am going to do

and where i am going to go

and what i am going to be

and how

here to there.

how.

will.

powchau